I Don't Actually Trust You

I’m not sure that I can trust you. It’s a feeling I have that I can’t quite put my finger on. You’re holding back a little bit. Enough that my gut questions the location of my wallet (or my heart)

You don’t give me the feeling that you’re more interested in my success than your success. It’s really possible that it might end up that you win and I don’t (if I don’t put my guard up in response)

It’s just a low-level feeling. It’s just an undercurrent in the conversation. I kinda know this but I can’t articulate it exactly. In fact, I’ll mostly ignore that feeling and go on interacting with you. It’s probably me. You’re just as ok as the next person around here. It’s cool. We’re good.

Here’s the mic drop…

If you want me to trust you, it’s your job to deliver a different feeling. I have to hang up the phone and think ‘she really wants me to win’ - ‘his objective is only to serve’. Until we get there, it’s your fault. You can argue if you want but that just makes it worse.

I wrote this directly @ you. Can I trust you?

Really?

(it’s not rhetorical haha. I actually want a reply)